Man, I have a lot going on. I mean, I know I say that a lot, but seriously....I have a lot on my mind and so much I want to get out. So let's start here: where to have the baby.
Seems easy enough, right? At a hospital. However, there are several shades of gray, and I suddenly find myself sifting through them on an endless search for the perfect shade. The shade that fits my family's needs and wants.
So I think I may have made mention of getting a Doula. Makes sense that I would if I'm serving on the Doula Foundation Board, right? Right. We met with her yesterday afternoon and even my husband is on board. But I think I might be ready to take it a step further. What does that mean, you ask?
I'm seriously considering a homebirth. I know. It's late in the game. I have approximately 11 weeks left. Not a lot of time to find a midwife, plan and prepare for such an extreme right? Wrong. I have a great, lovely friend with an awesome recommendation for a midwife. And since she's meeting with her today, she's going to see if said midwife might be willing to take on a late case. I'm hoping for good news. I'm hoping that she'll at least talk to me. I'm hoping that I'm comfortable with her and she's comfortable with me. Hoping, hoping, hoping....
I know. There are people out there that think having a child at home is not just risky, but incredibly stupid. My best friend is one of those people, and I don't think I'm even going to tell her about it. But I make no decisions of this level of importance without a thorough amount of research. And here's the thing. People think midwives don't have the ability to handle emergency situations. However, these people are trained to determine early on whether a transport to the hospital is necessary. They also come equipped with instruments needed to stop bleeding, resuscitate breathing, suction meconium, etc. should those things arise. And the person I'm looking at is partnered with a doctor.
I am low risk. I have had one child. I was not listened to when I had that child and do not want that repeated. I want to birth my baby the way I want to do. If that means I'm squatting when the child comes out, so be it!
In the mean time.....it's still not an easy decision and I'm still not wholly convinced.